‘My Miscarriage’/A Very Important Update

 

My Story

 

     It has been exactly one year, to the day, that my world was changed forever, September 11, 2017.  And, its finally time to share.  I also want to honor the fact that this is a hard day for many, as it is the anniversary of 9/11.  I am sensitive to that fact as I find courage to share my story from the same day. This is simultaneously terrifying and freeing.  Just this week in my yoga classes and conversations, I said, in my own words, “I believe truthfulness supports living an authentic life.  I also believe truthfulness calls within us the courage to be vulnerable; and this calls an even greater force from within us to remember our worthiness.”  I am blessed to have you, dear friend, to be reading, and journeying along with me.  I am forever grateful for our shared journey.  Renae Cobb puts it so right, in my opinion, “Certainly, the people we love inspire us to heights of love and compassion that we might have never achieved otherwise, but to really scale those heights, we often have to go to the depths of who we are, light/shadow, good/evil, loving/destructive, and figure out our own stuff in order to love them better.  So, I’m not sure it’s an either/or but a *both/and.  We love others fiercely, maybe more than we think we love ourselves, but that fierce love should drive us to the depths of ourselves so that we can learn to be compassionate with ourselves.”

 

     It has been exactly one year, to the day, that my world was changed forever.  The day that I found out that my sweet little Baby #2 was not going to come Earth side with us, but instead return to Spirit side.  And, all too early.  I would be blessed months later in a vision journey to be visited by their Spirit.  It was SO clear that they were asking of me to be courageous in honoring their worthiness, and the life that they did have, all 9 weeks and 3 days.  I write now, with tears in my eyes.  But, my heart is *’both/and’ sad and terribly joyful!  I was lucky to have you Little Sweet One.  So many parents don’t even have that opportunity.  I have learned so much from this part of my story.  I have become even more sensitive, caring, forgiving, and understanding; and honor that all these learnings are on a continual development.

 

     It is with open heart that I invite you to listen now, to this part of my story, and other parts of my whole life’s story, in this podcast interview with my dearest friend, Dr. Deborah Adamy!  Her podcast, “Enlighten: Uplift and Inspire” can be found pretty much everywhere; my interview is episode #37.  Her website is www.enlighten.nyc

Here is the link to the interview:  http://traffic.libsyn.com/enlighten/Episode_37_Shawna_Emerick_dancer_yoga_teacher_retreat_leader.mp3?dest-id=628796

 

Huge Announcement Follow Up To The Interview!

 

     The story continued to unfold with emotional ups and downs in our desire to have another, third, child.  However, it is with great joy that I, Geoffrey, Maxwell, 3yrs., Baby #2, and Astro our dog, share with you Baby #3!  Due March 3rd, 2019!  I have waited until this moment to share because it has been with cautious optimism that the first trimester came and went.  It is different to go in the journey after a loss.  This is why my loss has given me much Light.  I feel more now for others, whether their loss has been a child, an elder, or other.  And I have met amazing people from my loss, and also now from the life growing within me.  This is also why I choose to share, so no one has to feel that they are alone in their journey.  Blessings and gratitude are my offerings, to God, to you dear reader, to my family, to my friends, and to myself.  Namaste. Aho. Amen. Shalom. Sat Nam. 

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